Friday, August 5, 2016

Back on the blog!

Hello my blogsy people, I'm back! How the time flies, especially when you're taking it a bit easier than usual. I can't believe August is here, but it is, and so am I. :-)

I want to start by thanking you for all your sweet support after my last  blog post a month ago. It is much much appreciated and made me very happy. You are the best, all of you!

I've had a reasonably calm and quiet month. Reasonably because of course I wasn't on vacation or anything, so I had to work and live my regular life. I just did not blog or do my morning art. In fact I did very little art at all, because of this:


I'm having trouble with my middle finger. It seems to be drawing related, but I'm not totally sure. I do have a tendency to hold my pens too tightly and this gives pressure on that finger, because that's what they rest on. Anyway, at some point it got so bad I went to see my doctor and she suggested the above contraption to take the pressure off. It was very impractical, but it did seem to help a little.
As we speak things are definitely better than they were, but it's not over yet. So I'm trying to take care and not overdo it. We'll see how it goes.

As for my diabetes, I had a more extensive blood test halfway July and things are indeed improving, but we are not there yet. I am taking pretty good care of myself though and am getting a bit more used to counting and keeping track of every damn thing I eat. I'm no saint, but I'm quite proud of myself.

The most frustrating thing to me is that my body is responding differently than it used to. My glucose levels seem way more sensitive to any kind of stress. Even just getting up in the morning and doing my regular morning stuff can up the glucose by 2 mmol without having eaten anything! Exercise should put your glucose levels down, but after a long walk mine are up! I have refrained from extra straining walks and only go on shorter ones now and hope to build things up again soon, because I miss my long hikes.

All the above has to do with putting stress on your body, not necessarily terribly depressing stress as in being super busy, on overload or pressured, but just stuff that gets your system going or that makes your body have to work a little harder.  A friend of mine wondered if it had anything to do with oncoming menopause and that doesn't even seem that farfetched as things are definitely changing. In the end the cause is irrelevant, because I have to learn to find balance with the results and there's only so much a person can do. I think most of all it will take time and patience and good medical care.

I have lost a little weight, but I try not to focus on that. Not because I couldn't stand to lose a few (read 'many') pounds, but because it makes me cranky as hell to keep track of everything and let my mood depend on both the number on a scale and a glucose meter. So I'd rather just focus on my blood glucose  and healthy choices and just see what happens. So far so good. I have to keep up the current care and will get another blood test in September to see if it continues to improve. Keep your fingers crossed.

Still, all in all I am feeling better than a month ago. I feel like doing stuff again and I really started missing my morning art practice and keeping up the blog. It was nice not to have to think about these things for a while, but it's good to be back.

Here are some images from July so you know what I've been up to:

Retail therapy!

Walks, walks, walks and some more walks.

Going to the beach, because it's good for everything.

Reading and journaling.

A tiny bit of art here and there.

Received some lovely snail mail. Yes, that's a Belgian hat for Spooky!

Enjoying the beauty and adorableness that is my spooky cat.

Spent several lunches in the office garden accompanied by this handsome fellow who belongs to a coworker.

Reading outside and lazing about.

A very kind local man (almost) finished making my jungle into a terrace. The cat is one of Spooky's frenemies. 

Fell in love. He belongs to one my neighbours but loves to come and play with Spooky. A lot.

Looking at these pictures there are a lot of animals in them! I actually interacted with humans too, I promise. I had a nice barbecue party of a friend who turned fifty for instance and my friend Monique came to the island for two weeks and we spent some nice time together roaming the island. In fact my next post will show some pics made on a day we spent together.

Well, with this is declare this blog back in use! I would love to read what you've been up to the past month so tell me about in the comments.

Wishing you all a wonderful and artsy weekend!



18 comments:

  1. Dag Carin,
    Veel sterkte gewenst met je niet goed functionerende vingers en ik hoop dat het probleem snel weer voorbij is.
    Fijn weekend en groetjes van Truus Hummelink

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    1. Dank je wel. Ik hoop ook dat het met de vinger gauw weer helemaal goed komt.

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  2. I'm trying to find my way back to blogging again too, and feel inspired some days and too lazy in other days... I hope you will be keeping healthy - take care of your self!

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    1. Thanks so much Hanna, I'm sure you will find your blogging groove again. :-)

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  3. I'm glad you're back and better. I missed our walks and hearing what you've been up to. That cat-hat is really cute. But can you get him to wear it?

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    1. Ha, so far no longer than a few seconds. I'm still on a mission to take a picture of him wearing it, but it's not easy. :-)

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  4. Welcome back, Carin! So glad to hear that you're feeling better than you had been and hope that it keeps that way for you.

    Wish I had something to write about with my month but sadly, my days are pretty much the same [I do a little of this and a little of that and get not much done ...]. I have, however decided after reading a different blog this morning I come across quite accidentally and now your request to hear what we've been up to [your readers] and my inability to come up with a darned thing really ... I've decided that I need to start purposely living my life. I'm 60 years old, guess I ought to start pretty soon with it, huh? lol All of a sudden I feel a need for a journal and some quiet to do A LOT of reflecting. : ) One thing I do know is that the darned TV needs to be given so time off!

    Have a nice day, friend!

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    1. Aah, I know the feeling of time sort of just slipping out of your hands when you think you get nothing worth while done or are just wasting it, but I find it often means I'm just being too hard on myself. Hope you find some 'joie de vivre' again and have some fun with whatever it is you'd like to do. I gave up tv several years ago, but am now on a netflix binging streak which I'm not sure is good for me, even though I do enjoy it. I may let go of my subscription again, but frankly I just need the down time right now. Good luck.

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  5. Leuk om je hier 'gezond en wel' terug te zien ! Het klinkt inderdaad een hele opgave om die bloedwaarden bij te houden maar zo te zien heb je dat weer heel positief aangepakt , 'chappeau' zeggen wij dan ... mooie foto's die veel gezelligheid uitstralen . Ja ik kan er ook echt niet bij dat het weeral augustus is in ieder geval kunnen we nu weer genieten van wat jij te vertellen hebt . Fijn week end !

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    1. Het lastige van het hele diabetesgebeuren is dat je lijf geen machine is en dus heel tegendraads kan reageren en niet 'volgens het boekje'. De balans komt er wel weer, maar het gaat niet vanzelf en je hebt er maar deels invloed op helaas. Het helpt wel om de vinger aan de pols te houden (of de prikpen in de vinger, haha) en de boel een beetje bij te houden zodat je leert wat wel en niet werkt.

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  6. Thank you so much for letting us know how you are doing and what you are doing. You are a regular inspiration.

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  7. Well Carin, I'm a bit late in reading this post, and I'm sorry to see that you are having such pain and difficulty with your fingers. My Summer seems to have come and gone very quickly. I haven't done very much at all, this summer, in the midst of headaches, not sleeping well, my dog died in May, and now we have a new puppy to train. Only now, I am trying to brush up on my calligraphy but not doing such a great job, so far. I hate that I never even had the chance to get to the beach for, at least, some of its beauty and to breathe in some of that salty air. I guess that's the way life is sometimes. Maybe I will get the chance in the next few weeks before the Summer is over? I don't know. Well, I need to get away from my depressing post, and tell you that Spooky's hat is adorable and I hope that you are feeling better real soon. Good to see you posting again......Linda E.

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    1. Oh Linda, I am so sorry things have been so stressful for you and that your dog has died. That's so sad. A new puppy is a hand full I'm sure (and also very cute I'm sure). My first months with Spooky were quite challenging as well and he was not even a kitten, just a very skittish nervous cat. I hope things calm down for you and your health and sleep will improve. Good luck and enjoy your calligraphy practice.

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  8. oh welcome back!! So good to see your blog again! I have to laugh - I'm on pinterest, and every so often they offer me pictures to pin based on my current boards, one of which is "Nature Pics" where the pictures come, very often, from you and from a few other friends who photograph the nature around them - but mostly you!! The pictures Pinterest shows me are never, ever, ever even close to inspiring me and quieting my soul the way yours do. That picture of the beach just got put on my board. Thank you so much for sharing your words, your work and your life - I am always strengthened and inspired. Thinking good thoughts about your fingers and your metabolism. My own body has been changing on me in unexpected ways for over a decade and I have to wonder - why am I still surprised? I had a view in my distant childhood that adults were static and in control - you'd think I'd be ready to let go of that one in the face of SO MUCH (personal and otherwise) evidence to the contrary. Blessings!

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    1. Your comment made me smile. First of all of course because you get such pleasure from my photographs. It makes me happy to know that people I've never met enjoy them even thousands of miles away. Thank you.
      I also smiled on your comment about control and adulthood. I always thought I would have myself completely together when I grew up, but I guess it never really happens, haha. Also total control is a total illusion. Of course there are things we can do to improve our health (or in my case improve my glucose levels), but they are only part of the story. There are so many influences on someone's health and life. People are not machines, no matter how much the health freaks would like to believe so and bodies can respond in a very different way than how they are 'supposed' to. I think more than anything it's important to get some peace of mine about the fact that we don't and can't control everything. And yes, I'm still working on that! ;-)

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  9. Hi Carin,
    So glad you are back blogging again. I love all the beautiful photos you share of your island and your art work! I also love the way you write, and you're so open about your life in so many ways. When I was blogging that was something I struggled with...how much to say or not to say. I was wondering about your flow mindfulness workbook...what is it and do they make it in english?

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. As for what I decide to write, I simply choose to write only what I would be willing to tell a complete stranger if they asked me about it. It's why I rarely write about other people in my life (that's not my story to tell, it would be an invasion of their privacy). But for myself I don't have that much to hide really, haha. Things I really want to keep to myself I simply don't share.
      The mindfullness workbook is in Dutch and I don't think they made an English one. They have a mindfullness special every year. If the magazine continues to be a succes abroad I'm sure they will start making these specials in English too. It has articles about all kinds of aspects of mindfullness and prompts with space to write your own thoughts and answers.

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